No And Me

“When you can’t sleep at night, worries multiply - they swell and get bigger, and as time ticks by, the future grows darker, the evidence backs up your worst fears, nothing seems possible anymore, nothing is calm or surmountable. Insomnia is the dark side of the imagination. I’m familiar with these black, secret hours. The following morning you wake up numb, the disaster scenarios have become fantastical. The day will wipe away the memory of them. You get up, wash and tell yourself that you’ll make it. But sometimes the night does announce the colour of the day, sometimes the night reveals only the truth: time passes and things will never be the same again”

—	No and Me. Delphine de Vigan

Silence

In our silence my head screams!
These thoughts I think  all have to be dreams.

In our silence I've said a million words to you
And you reply, your quiet whispers velvety and soft.
Comforting not demanding, each word confirming your love.

In our silence our bodies draw nearer.
Eager, needing, never once resisting.
The screams in my head not nearly as threatening.

In my silence I wonder what you feel.
My soul seeks your soul.
Everything you are I long to know.

Breaking the silence you question my shyness..
I say nothing, I just kiss you hoping it conveys the questions, the insecurity, the happiness but most especially the love.
All wrapped up in one
In our silence, my thoughts screams with these..

My Heart

My heart is so guarded- locked up with chains, protected.
Never wanting to repeat that cycle, too weak for hurt, so brittle..
Still trying to solve love's riddle.

Its funny, thought I was so in love but it was phoney.
Acting like he really cared but he was faking.
Pretending to be mine but he was taken.

Reliving the stupid mistakes I keep making.
The same patterns I'm repeating.
Hoping he was the one.. Oh where has true love gone?

The cut so deep, so raw, but its healing.
Betrayed, enraged, had me grieving.
But now I'm strong, so long to dark nights and empty mornings.
Now you're gone there'll be no more mourning.

My heart is guarded- locked up with chains, protected.
Aching for release, eager to beat once more, full of love's bliss.

Us.

What we have is special.
No pretence, no guessing.
Whatever you feel I'm sensing.
Your heart and mine connecting.


What we share is strong.
No doubt that it'll last long.
Your kisses linger like a song.
No need to deny I'm sprung.


What we are is so true.
Where it will take us I haven't a clue.
I don't really care though,as long as its with you.


So hold me tight, don't let go.
'Cos if you do I'll probably break down.
In this dark sea I'll drown. 
Just like a king without his crown-
There's no me without you.


Yes, what we have is special.
And its all of you I'm loving.

Old Stuff

I found a couple of old poems I put on this website called all poetry when I was going through one of my many phases. This phase was the confused-about-feelings/I-think-I'm-a-poet phase. It's safe to say it didn't last very long. Got a couple of positive feedback though so uhm yeah, I'm going to post them all up here and I hope you like them. Peace and love xx

Keep It Real

Keep It Real
Sick tune! Watch out for Tosin Kuti guys and I'm not just saying that cos he's my cousin. Lol! LISTEN LISTEN LISTEN!

Happy Mothers Day!

I've never been one to share my emotions with people. Love, sadness, fear, disappointment and all those deep feelings. I think about them a lot but I just can't bring myself to turn the thoughts into audible words or even type them down. Even when I manage to type them, sharing them with someone else is never an option. Somehow I think it's my blessing and my curse. People don't know how to hurt me but sadly they don't know how to reach me either. The only person I feel truly gets me is my Mum. She somehow knows how I'm feeling without me having to say a word. She never pressures me into talking about my feelings but pieces meaning together when I finally manage to spit out incoherent sentences about what's on my mind. She always knows the right things to say to me when I'm worried or upset. Most importantly she trusts me to make the right decisions for myself. Sometimes I think she trusts me a little too much, maybe gives me too much freedom but then I realize that's exactly what I need. No matter what choices I make, I know there's someone who still loves me wholeheartedly and unconditionally, who understands me even when I don't understand myself and who will do anything to make me happy... My Mother. The most beautiful, amazing, intelligent, enduring woman I know. Happy Mothers day Mummy. I love you with all my heart.
                   
                                                                                                           Your baby, Romoke.

Video Of The Week

This absolutely made my entire week! Totally hilarious! xx

View From My Window

Winter wonderland in spring :)

Ghosts Of Relationships Past

You know when you make all those silly little mistakes that make you smile and cringe/hit yourself when remember them, like falling asleep with your uggs on and waking up in the middle of the night thinking your feet are on fire or getting into the shower with your underwear still on or buying a child train ticket/not buying a ticket at all and getting busted... No? Just me? *awkward look* Well you get the point!!.. That what-the-hell-was-i-thinking feeling. Yeah that feeling.. That's the feeling I get after almost all the relationships I've been in. Tbh I can't really call most of them relationships, but hey! Whatever is whatever right? I'm not one of those people who say they wouldn't change anything if they could do it all over again cos I sure as hell would! shiii. However, I know that turning back the hands of time is impossible *or so they have us think >_>*, so I'll be realistic and say this; shit happens but I'm really glad they did because it has taught me soo much! Especially the 'easy come, easy go' theory and yeah I'll be cliche and say it has made me who I am today and I'm pretty amazing so whaduya know? *kanye shrug* lol. Anyway, moral of this post and you know I always have a moral cos mama rommy is just so wise and insightful, okay I'm drifting again, I really have to work on this drifting problem. sigh.. Where was I?? Yes yes, the moral of this post is this : Regret is for suckers! Yeah we can look back into our past and see where we went wrong but only to make us do better in the present/future, never to wallow in it. Mistakes are exactly what they are, mistakes. No one is above them so never beat yourself up about them cos everyone makes them! Okay that's all.. Till next time, God is love and fabulousity is I! Peace and love xx 

A Few Of My Favorite Things :)

Finished my January exams today! Whoop whoop! I'm so glad it's over and done with! Now I can catch up on all my favorite shows; gossip girl, modern family aanndd my new obsession!!! Life's Too Short. It's a new British observational sitcom series created and written by Ricky Gervais and Stephen Merchant (funniest British guys eveeerrr in life!!) about this guy, Warwick Davies. Who's the dwarf in the Harry Potter movies- Professor Flitwick. Yes, yes I'm "one of those Harry Potter people" *rme*. Anywayyy, he's basically in a rut financially, career wise and home wise and this series is about him trying to come back up in the showbiz industry and all. It is literally the funniest thing on British t.v at the moment and there are loads of guilty laughs about 'little people'. It's all fictional though, thank goodness for that! cos if it was real it'll be a big shame really lol. Anyway WATCH IT! its fantastic! Since we're on the subject of my new favorite things, I might as well fill you guys in on this lady called Emeli Sande. She's an amaaaziiinnng singer/song writer and has written songs for Susan Boyle, Leona Lewis, Chipmunk, just to name a few. Now she's releasing her own album which is called 'Our Version Of Events' some time in uhmm, February. The singles already out are fantastic, her voice is amazing and just has so much depth. She's just effortlessly cool and I reckon she's gonna be really big! Okay that's it, I'm starting to sound like a promoter lol.. Its not like anyone is paying me for all this :(. They should be though :p.. I'll leave you guys with one of Emeli's singles. Absolutely love this one! so yeah, uhm, enjoy :) .. Till next time, peace and love xxx

Been long you saw me.

Heeeeeyyy there people of blog land!! Its beenn aaagggeeesss!  Btw, please don't crucify me for being tacky and borrowing Wande Coal's new song title for my post title X_X lol.. Anyway, its been really long since I came on here. Kinda missed blogging and ranting. Trust me there are loooaaddss of things for me to rant about but I've just been sooo busy! I hate how busy I've become :(. Right now I'm on a 30minute break from studying for my Economics exam on Monday. Just remembered I had a blog and decided to exercise my fingers a little bit. Right! my time's up! I'll definitely make more of an effort to post more things up after my exams. Bye for now.. 

God bless, rommy x