Lately I've found myself questioning a lot of things in my life. I feel like I'm this transitional phase where nothing makes sense. I have so many questions and not nearly enough answers. What should I be doing with my life? Where am I headed? Why does everything seem to be standing still? Will I get past this feeling? My whole existence is just conflicted. I realise now how easy it is to get caught up in other people's seemingly perfect lives even though I tell myself everyday not to compare my life's pace with anyone else's. I guess it's because I'm in sort of a limbo right now, in between finishing uni and picking a career path. I know I should be savouring this free time that I have, learning a skill or just plain enjoying my freedom but I just feel trapped. What if I never get that dream job? What if I'm not as amazing as I think I am and nobody wants me? I'm trying really hard not to doubt myself but I'm failing miserably. These thoughts weigh me down so heavily, they creep into all my airy moments. I don't know what to do but I am certain I'm not the only one who feels like this and I'm determined to overcome this feeling. Writing this all down has helped, praying also really helps. If there's anyone reading this (which I highly doubt) who also feels this way know that this too shall pass. Find a way to organise and compartmentalise these feelings. Figure out the ones that you can do something about and the ones that you just have to leave to God and time. Pray for God's guidance and his help to find purpose in your life and remember that you are a star. That's what I'm going to be doing anyway. I'll let you know how it works for me. Till then, stay positive.
Love, Romoke x
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